Fear of failure

 the fear of failure is what stops me from achieving mostly everything in my life 

I believe, 

and that is the most bullshit excuse I'm giving myself 

for one minute, I just want everything around me to stop,

this fear of failure fails me again, 

I've been hitting rock bottom so many times,

it has become my second home 

the faces of people disappointed in me, 

staring at me as I see the sadness reflected off my face in their eyes 

I don't understand what I'm looking for

I don't even know where to look anymore, 

should I be proud that I'm at least self aware 

or 

just give up on everything because I feel like I'm slowly dying again and again

Let's hope this fear does not take over me completely 

as I still have a lot of dreams to complete...